Feeling Good

I'm feeling pretty good right now. I've been eating my new meals for a couple days now and it's such a load off my mind to wake up every day or come home at night and know that good food is ready and available.

One of the things I've struggled with in the past, and I'm trying to avoid doing now, is trying to do everything at once. I'm feeling better emotionally so I want EVERYTHING to be good from eating, to keeping my house clean, being organized, and even working out.

I have such difficulty in just trying one thing at a time and waiting until I get comfortable before adding something else. I'm sure I'm not the only one!

My friend Linda is doing the MORE workouts and to some degree feel that if she can do it, so can I so I've been reading all this stuff today about T-Tapp and trying to find my MORE workout and just feeling some sort of competitiveness and I don't really understand why. I'm happy she's doing the workout and happy she's in the place where she's ready for it -- I just feel like I should be there too.

I think that partially I'm scared of losing this wave that I'm on, this feeling good and wanting to get things done wave that I have to try and do it all or I'll feel as though I'm not doing enough.

I tell ya, sometimes I write what is going on and I feel so confused and messed up and then some times everything is very clear. I really wish I could stabilize and get to that middle-ground where I understand and can do what is best, not necessarily what everyone else (meaning media, doctors, well intentioned people) think is right, does that make sense?

I am going to start a cleanse (probably 3 months total) using the DrNatura.com products (Colonix). I decided to do this in addition to eating better as building blocks. If I get my foundation ready then I should be able to build onto it. Maybe once my foundation is stronger, things will be clearer to me.

Update: 6/18/2007

I discovered that even when the food is already prepared that it doesn't solve the problems. I canceled the DTG service. I wonder if I'll ever find some mix of things that works for me.

I enjoy eating 'le junque' - perhaps too much but I added in a yummy smoothie this morning. I'm hoping that adding those back in will start to even out the way I eat.