Who Knew?

Life has been busy at work. I'm learning more and more every day about being a good manager. It's really challenging to me and some days I wonder why I wanted to be a manager in the first place. *G*

I think the hardest part is not beating yourself up over things that you can't control. I have an employee who challenges me so much and I feel as though I'm failing her because I'm not able to get her to see what she's got inside her. I feel as though if she leaves the company, and she's on thin ice, that I will have failed. I know that we can't change people and we can only be a positive influence and that she makes her own choices. But I will always wonder if I could have done more.

But, at what point is too much?

I think that being a manager is easily the hardest thing I've ever done -- it's even harder than changing my own beliefs which I thought was pretty difficult!

I like the challenge though. I appreciate the opportunities that I have and I'm happy that I am successful at it, even when it's tough.